life is wierd

it's been an intense week with big news. I found out that a friend is pregnant(!!), a friend is engaged (!!), my friend who is recently engaged wants me to be in her wedding(!!), a family member has cancer and it could be in a further stage than anyone would have expected(....), and someone close to me may not ever be able to have children of their own(...), and someone who was recently hospitalized and told they need to stop drinking or they wont be living much longer is hanging out with people who are not good influences....and someone might be quitting their job because of the way they are being treated....soo yea....a little overwhelming... it's like all kinds of mixed emotions of wanting to be happy for friends and yet wanting to be horribly sad and worried for other friends/family....i just dont know what to feel right now. it's so much easier to push the negative things out of my mind and focus on all the good things going on..but i can't... i need to pray for the people around me but i hate to think about what they're going through. it's like i don't want to accept what theyre going through so i don't think about it. anyway, i didn't really have anywhere i was going with this post..so maybe if you happen to stumble across this you could pray for the good and the bad things that are happening around me right now? that would be cool...

Empty hands glorify God

God doesn't need what we have to offer. We can't give him things that we have, he created everything, so it's already his. Going to God humbly and admitting that you have absolutely nothing to offer him to make him notice or love you more is more glorifying because then you are telling God that you are His, and you know you're not good enough and you know you're worldy possessions won't get you anywhere with Him. He loves you anyway. It's a crazy concept to grasp. You can do all the good things you possibly can but it would never be enough to make up for the goodness of God and the depravity of the human race. He's so good all the time. So empty hands really are the best thing to offer up to God. Admit that God is way better than we'll ever be and rest in the comfort of that. God will be glorified by it. And that's not to say that God doesn't want us to do good things for others, or to use the things that he's given us in this life to glorify him...he does. But we need to remember that we can't earn our way into heaven. Thats a gift that we need to be humbly thankful for....



*wrote that at the worship team prayer summit*